I'm feeling so depressed lately. I have the weight of the world on my shoulders, yet i feel compelled to put on this "happy" face when i'm around others. Sometimes it requires so much of an effort, that i don't even want to be around the people i normally hang out with because i'm afraid that one day i'll just collapse under all the weight and totally lose it. Lots of deep thoughts have been going through my mind lately, and i guess that's a sign that some major changes are going to take place in my life in the near future. I just hope the changes are all for the better, because i feel very powerless to control anything right now.

I was watching a show on TV the other day, and one of the characers said, "This is the happiest day of my life". That really got me thinking. I can't think of any one day that i can term "the happiest day of my life". Something spectacular, that led to several positive changes, would have to have occurred that would make any particular day the happiest day of my life. And i just can't think of any day like that, well i can think of a few days where several great things happened to me, but there are always days a few months or years later when whatever good things that happened on those great days came crashing down on me.

I had a dream about my mother a few days ago......but that's a thought for a different time.

In the last journal entry i wrote, something funny happened to me, but i can't for the life of me remember what it was......it must have been pretty funny though, otherwise i wouldn't have mentioned it, but then if it was so funny, how come i don't remember it??? Oh well.......that's the story of my life......

Hello!.....welcome to my weblog. So finals are finally over, you'd think i'd be estatic, but i'm not. Maybe i'll be happy after wednesday when we get all our grades.....we'll see. I'm going to do nothing productive for the next week, then i'll probably head down to austin on like the 23rd. Looking forward to all the down time. For those who aren't done with finals.......MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!
Happy Holidays!

So something funny happened today..... hahahaha......you'll have to check back tomorrow to find out what was so funny. You probably won't find it all that funny when i do tell you, but you'll probably be dying to know.....hahaha